Letting Go For Good

Letting go is one of the hardest and the most liberating thing a person can do.

You let go of the impossible goals you’ve set on for.

You let go of the feelings towards people who puts you in a bad situation.

And become fully self-actualized in a moment when you gained something from losing something really important.

Yesterday, I was at the church, and the priest talked about letting go. He explained that letting go will lead you to greatest happiness you never thought you’ll ever have, bring into a state of balance and stability and learned and understand at one point that everything happens for a reason, and what’s meant to be will happen as long as you trust and believe.

It was such good timing because I’m on a verge of letting go or I’ve been slowly letting go of the fantasy I think will become a reality years from now. That’s not to say, I’m not going to have the last effort to make this fantasy come true. Well, it won’t really come true, days had passed, and I realized that my interest on it is decreasing day by day. Maybe because I’m finally getting out for good from my bubble I constructed to protect myself and my future or maybe because I’m starting to see things I haven’t been seeing before. Making the last effort for it is to prove to myself that what I learned about it is not really meant to be.

Another thing that letting go creates in your life, it gives you something important to you too.

I gained something, not just one but a lot of more. And I am more than grateful because it never occurred to me that it would happen.

I gained the opportunity to do what I love, writing. I got another chance to pursue my other passion, singing, and my passion for the piano that I’ve lost maybe eleven or twelve years ago is back. Getting them back in my life made me the happiest person because I gave them up years ago.

God has been really good to me this year, not that he hasn’t been good in the previous years. I have to admit I’ve lost my way and became distrustful compared to how I was before in high school.

This year, what happened to me, made me somehow self-actualized. Letting go led me to my peak experience I’ve become much more happier, accepting, appreciative, grateful, considerate, positive, beautiful inside and out, confident about myself, active than I was before, more open-minded, it has given me more perspectives, made me think out of the box more often and see things differently.

You should try it too! It’s not easy, it’s hard, and very painful but it’s worth it. I assure you that.

Trust my word when I say that if it’s meant to be, it will happen and if it’s not something better will be given to you.


Blind Faith and Optimism, do they really happen?

“As you have believed, let it be done to you” Lord Jesus to the Roman Centurion

This morning, I woke up with an exhausted feeling from the life that I live. My job as a writer is the one I’ve always wanted but I came to realization three months ago that writing articles and manuals is the one I really want. Instead I came to a conclusion that I wanted to write stories that will touch people’s hearts and help them somehow.

I am now in a state where I trust God fully but sometimes you can’t but doubt if what you asked from God will ever come true. It is because of the blessings I’ve got from God this year and also because of the pilgrimage my Grandmother and I attended two months ago and the seminar I attended with my choir seniors. It led me to a stronger faith in God, it opened my eyes to the miracles in front of me, and it gave me a wide understanding of the situations I am in the past.

One of the lessons I learned is that after asking God for what you’ve wished for, claim it and thank God even though it’s not there yet. Live your life as if it’s already there.

I am living my life as best as I could that way. I wished for some things, claimed it, believe it’s going to come and thank God for it. It’s one of the strongest things that made me happy.

What I’m truly asking myself right now is that do people with blind faith and optimism just like I am get what they want in the end? I know I just contradicted myself when I said that but sometimes I can’t help it. I really wanted happiness but sometimes I just get so angry and irritated of waiting for the significant moment I’ve been waiting for.

Let me ask you? I hope I get your opinions.

I wanted something. I prayed for it. Claimed it. Believed it will come. And Thanked God for it. God gave me signs that what I wanted is for me and it will come. Science also proves it that it’s for me and it will come. Would you still believe it now even it seems impossible for now that it will come? Because while there are signs that it’s for me and it will come, there are also signs that it’s not for me and that it won’t come my way.

I really need your opinions and suggestions. Even though I firmly believe that it’s for me and it will happen, it’s painful to wait for it come and the signs that goes against my signs brings me so much pain when I remember it.

Everyday I do my best to fight for it but right now, I’m loss and I don’t know if I should hold on to it or just let go and move on from it.

What do you guys think?